RIP LOLO

I'm the saddest person on earth :( My Grandpa passed away yesterday. I was supposed to go home last Saturday and visit him in the province but because I was so tired I didn't. That could have been the last time. And I can't help but to blame myself. I grew up with my grandparents and not having them in my life is such a pain. Life is so heartless. I could have been there. I could have shown how much I love him. I could have hug him one last time. God! Why? :(